Indescribable;;

Friday, September 30, 2005:

AH, i just watched the what a girl wants dvd. and BOY OH BOY. it has just made me swoon and swoon and swoon.. i LOVE YOU OLIVER JAMES! (:

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. he's SO SO SO SO SO cute. (: i shall go dream about him now. lalala

anyway. (: HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY EVERYONE! :P its the last one we'll ever have. thank you ms tan for the snickers and mars bars. (:(:(:

a shout of praise.
10:44 PM

hmmm, visited zhen's blog and then lo and behold i say a test that she took by colorgenics so i decided to take it too. heh.

so here's the results. (which i think made me think alot and i think it can be quite accurate. at certain places. not telling where tho. ;) )

At this time you are feeling 'uptight' and you are urgently in need of rest and relaxation; but perhaps even more than that you need to overcome that feeling that you have been 'hard done by' and treated with a complete lack of consideration. Maybe you have, but whatever may have been the cause of your inherent anxiety, you regard the situation as intolerable. You are, however, sufficiently competent to turn that situation around - you have overcome similar problems in the past, and really this one isn't too different.

You are looking for excitement and stimulation and you are ready to try anything - but be careful not to take too many risks.

You need a friend - a close friend - and you are willing to become emotionally involved with the right person, but you are very demanding and particular in your choice of partners. You are constantly looking for reassurance and it is perhaps because of this that you tend to be somewhat argumentative, but you try to hold back - careful to avoid open conflict - since this might reduce your prospects of realizing your hopes of establishing a warm caring relationship.

You are trying to prove yourself - not only to yourself but also to everyone around you. There is much that you would like to say and do but the situation warrants self-restraint and that is the last thing that you have on your mind. It would seem that you have an unsatisfied need to ally yourself with others whose standards are as high as your own.

You want to be different - to stand out from the crowd. This is subjecting you to considerable stress but you tend to stick to your attitudes despite lack of appreciation. Of course, you are finding the situation uncomfortable and would like nothing better but to break away from it but you don't like the idea of compromise. Your main problem is that you are unable to resolve the situation because you continually postpone making the necessary decisions. You feel that if you make the wrong choice this would lead to such opposition that you would not be able to command the esteem of others. It is essential that those around you are prepared to comply with your wishes.

You would like to be respected and valued for yourself and this can only be achieved from within a close and harmonious relationship.

ah well. that makes me understand certain things about myself better. life has to go on.

a shout of praise.
8:35 PM

can i say if i've been studying alot these past few days? actually it doesnt seem like alot. but at least i did work. if i stay at home i think i wont be doing much. so i think i'm studying more efficiently. maybe. ahwell.

i've been studying with kaye and sam, and i think i'm actually quite dumb compared to them. :S sigh. but at least i'm trying. (: today was quite fun, cos it was only the 3 of us, so there werent noise from certain noisy people who dont know how to study quietly. HEH. anyway. we talked about alot of stuffs in btwn our breaks. like how different denominations in the church came about and the difference between religions. and how different denominations of christianity are practiced. so it was like methodist versus charismatic churchs. cos since kaye and i come from methodist backgrounds and sam was from city harvest, so sam shared with us and stuff. hmmm. but i'm more used to being a methodist so. still not quite used to being so expressive. but i dont think its wrong.. as long as you believe. dont you think? hmmm. anyway.

and then we talked about school and after sec 4 life. :S its kinda scary to think we'll all be leaving mg into seperate paths, and meet the same people you've been seeing for the past ten years. its gonna be quite impactful. :\ and i wont even be able to see anybody at all. i'm all the way in aust. AH. :'\ -sniff-

lalalala. i feel like eating durian. (: (: (: and ice cream.

and i need a french curve. and some graph paper.

i wanna watch a movie! (:

ahh. have to wake up early tmr.! going to btp to study with them again.. (: ladeela.

here i stand my life before you
cant believe the price you've paid
gave it all just for me
i lay my life upon the altar
take me now,
i place my life in your hands

king of heaven you're my saviour
you left your place of glory
giving your life just for me
how could i ever repay you
you came into my life lord
you set me free

everything i am i give to you
you are holy holy
take my life and everything i do
you are holy holy
- you are holy, planetshakers

a shout of praise.
8:04 PM

Wednesday, September 28, 2005:

okay. i just finished my situational. dont unerstand why we need to be so skilled in english. so what if my command of the english language is lousy, doesnt mean i would be less effective in putting my point across. but anyway. it just part of life la. like how everything is a part of life and how i must get on with life. yepp.

Here I am, humbled by Your majesty
Covered by Your grace so free.
Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb.

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since You laid down Your life, the greatest sacrifice.
Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty-handed but alive in Your hands

Here I am, humbled by the love that You give
Forgiven so that I can forgive.
So here I stand, knowing that I am Your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire.

Singing Majesty, Majesty.
Forever I am changed by Your love
In the presence of Your Majesty.
We're singing Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am
And I'm nothing but alive in Your hands.
-majesty [here i am], delirious

a shout of praise.
10:23 PM

hmmm. 14. weird. its like a stuck in the middle grade. i'm not complaining. neither am i happy. but i guess i have to accept it. i mean. i know i can do better, if i had spent more time. shouldnt have given myself excuses to sleep early, or watch tv. gahhh. wonder what would happen if i studied harder. i would actually have gotten a confirmed place. but i shant say anymore. i shant be insensitive. i'd choose to be happy. and thankful.

went to study with sam and kaye today after chinese. and dean and clement happened to be there. did a full math paper. and did some chem and geog here and there. haha. and helped with kaye's bio a little. hmmm. just did half an sbq for hist in front of the tv, ha. and i'm doing my situational now. feels like i've done quite abit today eh.? hmmm. oh well. more work to be done.

talked to amanda xie about life in st marys for her. she left mg last year to go there and she makes it seem so exciting over there, lots of stuffs to do. yet at the same time it seems so intimidating. and the saddest thing is i wont be able to blog or go on msn for the rest of my life [or year]. but i still get a laptop. hahaha. (: i'm really scared i wont adapt. i'm scared that i wont make friends. worse of all, i'm scared that i cant do well. then everything will fall apart, even if i have a route out of the traditional jc way.. i dunno la. seems so.. scary.. i dont want to leave. ):

aiyah. but then again, if i dont go, i cant stand singapore's education system anymore. ahaha. i' d probably fail my a levels la! okay. i shall be thankful for being blessed.

ladeela. i shall go back to my situational. yepp. laters.

a shout of praise.
8:34 PM

Monday, September 26, 2005:

hmmm. what can i say about today. went out after school to btp to study with claire abi and kaye. met their church friends maurice (who is totally clueless about math) and dean who came when me and kaye left. LOL. that was funny.

but anyway. kaye left some stuff in class and she wanted to get it cos it was quite important, so i left with her. then we ended up talking about alot of stuff like how hard it is to be a christian, and going to church and stuffs. it was quite a good talk and i feel really enlightened. (: well i shared with her some stuffs that i've learnt recently, so maybe i'll share it now. god doesnt need you to be ashamed of what you've done against him. he doesnt want you to feel guilt. all he wants you to do is ask him for forgiveness, and be humble and truthful before him. god wants you to know that you are worthy, not unworthy. he wants you to know that his grace surpasses all understanding, and his forgiveness no one can fathom.

so. dont think that god's expectations of you are that high. he just wants you to love him like he loves you, unfailing, never wavering, and stubborn. he wants to be put first in your life. is it really difficult to do that? being a christian isnt easy, you're always subjected to the worries of this world, but god said, " do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink, or your body, what you wear... your heavenly father knows that you need them. but seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well." matthew 6 v.25, 32, 33 all you have to do is put him first in your life, make it your priority to place him first. nobody said its going to be a breeze. but if your focus is right, your life is right. and you know what? the rules of god surpasses all rules on earth. so dont fear. god is with you. amen? AMEN.

yeah. so. anyway. colossians, philippians, ephesians and galatians are really good books, go read it if you all have the time. yupp.

thinking of going to BRMC this sun with abi so that we can end church earlier and study. good idea? i dont know. hmmm. i'll decide later. better do some more work.

"When you were dead in your sins and in the uncircumcision of your sinful nature God made you alive with Christ. He forgave us all our sins, 14having canceled the written code, with its regulations, that was against us and that stood opposed to us; he took it away, nailing it to the cross." -col 2:13-14

You are my source and my salvation
Nothing compares to You
All of my days, I long to know You more
Holy Spirit pour down like water
I'm hungry for Your touch
Each breath I take, I give my
all to You
-my source

a shout of praise.
9:27 PM

Sunday, September 25, 2005:

i feel so lousy. what kind of friend am i.

i didnt want to sms you cos i was irritated and then now i cant cos your phone is confiscated.. ah. and i cant talk to you already.. i'm sorry.. ):

but i hope you're okay. you dont sound okay. call me when you can k. dont forget that i <3 you.

i realise that jealousy can be very dangerous. it creeps around in you, makes you ultra moody, makes you feel like you want to dislike, to hate, to feel protective, and like you're left all alone. i cannot and will not allow this feeling to grow in me.

i think i wasted alot of time today. better go do something constructive.

ta.

a shout of praise.
8:26 PM

I'VE REACHED THE HUNDRED POST! CONGRATS CONGRATS KRISSY! (:(:

waa. my collection of blog posts have grown so much.. i still rmb the time when i first got a blog on diaryland, then xanga, then diaryland, then blogger.. wahhh. long way mann.. *sniffs.* and to think i've grown so much since blogging first started... ahh. i wanna thank my mama, my papa, the computer.. hahaha.

that was so exxagerated. anyway. just came back from amath tuition like half an hour ago, just ate my super early dinner and i am wayyy full. i kept counting the no of mins till a math was over, it was SO boring. okay i think its just that i dont know anyone there cept for hannah cos we skipped last friday's lesson for longest day.. mmhmm. i think i like friday's class better. and i still have to go back next sunday. ewww. at least there's nicholas or i think i'll die of lonliness and boredom.. you know what. i think i'm brain dead. nothing seems to be going into my head, and its like a total vaccuum up there. something's really wrong with me i tell you. and o's are like, what, 5 weeks away. 5 WEEKS! thats like, super dooper close. i tell you ah. at this rate i'm going. i'll fail miserably. SIGH.

i wonder if its a good thing to not feel stressed. cos maybe god made me feel stressless. but it doesnt seem to be helping me. i work and push myself under stress. and now i dont seem to be working at all cos of the lack of it. aiyah. this is very bad. GOD. please make me feel stressed. :(

anyway. svc was kinda weird today. dont know how to describe it. i think it would have been better if i just did backup. i really didnt feel like playing leh. haiya. like. the songs were really really meaningful and i wanted to sing it out. not play it cos my concentration would be on the chords not the meaning. i dont know la. oh well.

you are the peace that guards my heart
my help in times of need
you are the hope that leads me
and brings me to my knees
for there i find you waiting
and there i find release
so with all my heart i'll worship
and unto you i sing

for you alone deserve all glory
for you alone deserve all praise
father we worship and adore you
father we long to see your face
for you alone deserve all glory
for you alone deserve all praise
father we love you
and we worship you this day
-you alone

lord you are always here with me
there is no changing God in thee
you are the same yesterday
and today and forever more
here on your promises i stand
you hold my future in your hand
my solid rock
almighty God
i worship you

when troubles come i trust in you
for i know you wil lead me through
and i know you are faithful
till the end
and when the storms are drawing near
when i'm with you i dont have to fear
you're my sheperd on whom
i can depend

through the day
through the night
i know your always by my side
-lord you are always here with me

a shout of praise.
5:21 PM

Saturday, September 24, 2005:

i realise that ATTITUDE is very important. i learnt that today. (: that's good isnt it. :D learning something new about my walk with the heavenly father everyday.. i feel so happy. okay. random points for today.

1_for god to come first in my life and reign in every part of it. whether you want him to reign over your life or not is your decision. would you rather be a mary or martha. i want to learn to be a mary. (: thats the attitude.

2_my faith to grow. to trust that he will meet my every need and i can depend on him. to know whats its like to have his neverending, stubborn love, and that he will forsake me, to know that wants the best for me, to experience his miracles in my life.

3_to embrace the holy spirit and feel his existence around me. to keep my focus and god's through the spirit's guidance.

thank you mey and abi, thank you for being my closest friends, thank you for sharing your joys and sadness with me. thank you for giving me those group hugs that i need so much. thank you for all the jokes and gossips that we do. thank you to the two of you, and i feel really really blessed to have friends like you two. (: i <3 YOU two!

drew! mr best friend! thank you too for those hugs. (: today was cool.. really cool. and you can be king for today cos you bought me soya bean. hahaha. i <3 you too!

lalalala. i feel so loved today. and i cant sleep. hahaha. and i have to wake up early tmr. and i have got band prac at 8. DIE LA. sure cannot wake up one. :S OH WELL. better go better go..

ciao people.

all i need is you LORD,
is you LORD,
all i need is you.

a shout of praise.
11:41 PM

Tuesday, September 20, 2005:

I'M DOOMED. aiyah. no matter how positive i am ah, no matter which angle i look at it ah, i'm still going to fail my piano exam la. :\ die already..

BUT. i'm thankful.

1._ for everybody. my mommy and daddy for being so encouraging and supportive, who prayed for me, and reminded me that god is there beside me watching over me during the exam. claire, minty and abi, beat, who went through every single bit of the piano exam with me, down the the last detail, and taught me new things that i never heard before, and endure my endless questions, especially when i asked it for like the millionth time. to leemey, drew, laura - who cheered me up when i was feeling sad about the whole exam, and especially your hug mey! thanks everyone. really. i guess i just didnt do as well as i wanted to. sigh.

2._ for god. for being there when i was in that tiny suffocating room. and for giving the examiner kindness, who gave me all the easy stuff, like C major 3 times for scales (c major!!!!), perfect cadences for aural (!!!) , and D major for sight reading (my best key), AND guess what. i couldnt play either, i like, screwed it up so much. (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) just kill me la. waaaa. that was totally totally. BAD. i feel so utterly disgraced.. shameful. i cant believe it. but thank you god anyway. without you, i think it would be alot worse. maybe its just god's plan or something. bleah. (excuses la)

oh well. got back like e math and geog today. was BAD. failed geog. ): as usual. no suprise la. (but i could have gotten at least a c6. haiix) and i got a 2 for e math. BLOODY TWO ONLY! walao. i really really wanted an A1. thats really bad. but i'm thankful that i dint get worse. at least its still a distinction. sighh. not looking forward to tmr. sshist and english and chem. not the best combi.

ahwell. POSITIVE-NESS kristi! satan is just there causing you grief and you know it. dont fall in his trap. be happy for god. you go girl.

wish me luck. (: -crosses fingers-

a shout of praise.
9:25 PM

Saturday, September 17, 2005:

i've decided to be happy, not depressed. choose to feel loved and blessed. and not stressed. i'm going to lay everything down at god's feet and have the faith that he will restore my life and bring healing into my soul.

wow. today was just so amazing. maybe life is getting better for a change. prelim results, i'm not going to bother what i get. i guess its just a timely reminder that this is how its going to turn out if i dont pump in more effort. and. life will have to go on... so. i want to and will believe god has a way for me. (: same goes for my piano exam. as long as i practice as hard as i can, and put in all my bestest effort, by god's mercy and grace, i'll manage to pass. yupp

longest day was yesterday.. and it was really... i dont know how to put it. touching? thanks goes to all the prefects and teachers who put in so much so much effort to make us feel so touched and loved by mg..

I LOVE MGS! WOOHOOOOOOO~

and i guess thats one of the things i'm going to miss most when i leave. all the blessings and care that mg has given to me all these years, my most happy 10 years school life in that sailor's uniform, all the love and guidance that my teachers have given to me all these years, and best of all, all the laughter and joy from the friendships made in my life with mg. BUT, truly, the most important thing i'm glad for being in mg is the chance to worship and dance freely for god and be a part of a community that, loves the father so so much. and i'm truly grateful for god being so close in my life.

Packing up the dreams God planted
In the fertile soil of you
I Can't believe the hopes He's granted
Means a chapter in your life is through
But we'll keep you close as always
It ~~won't~~ even seem you've gone
Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say "never"
Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
to live as friends.

With the faith and love God's given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy you'll live in
Is the strength that now you show
But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

a shout of praise.
9:26 PM

Thursday, September 15, 2005:

word of today and for the rest of the year.: SIGH

hmmm. ms ho gave us a peptalk today when we went thru our a math paper. she said the most important thing is our attitude to work hard and strive to get what we want. never give up and just keep going no matter how hard it may seem because the attitude will get you far. it is quite true la, just very hard to keep that attitude strong you know? its just so depressing to see these kind of results and frankly. its scary. i mean. how can anyone fail english? now o levels are really start to get freaky. and seriously. (besides the fact that i dont need to care) HOW WOULD I (IF I COULD) GET INTO A JC!?! arghhhhhhh.

someone reminded us today that god only helps those who help themselves. so. the plan? help yourself, and then put everything else to god. do your part.. is it? i guess so.

LONGEST DAY tmr.. last time we'll ever get to play. EVER. and i must stop thinking about it. play hard and work doubly hard, ms ho said. :\ i'll TRY. no promises. too hard already.. but if i want it, i got to work for it. ): back to longest day. wheee. its going to be the last time as a level. and i'd beter enjoy every second of it. when will i see everyone to play again man. ): bleah.

i MUST stop being so pessimistic. sigh.

"whatevery you do, work at it with all your heart as for working for the Lord, not for man, since you know that you will recieve an inheritance from the Lord as a reward" col 3:23-24 timely reminder isnt it. yeah. i guess, if my focus is to aim to please god, then everything will fall into perspective right. (: RIGHT. okay. but first. PIANO! practice practice practice.. dumdumdum..

okay. something optimistic: the TAI-TAI rules all. (:

oh rats. i forgot.! time to go...
fare thee well, then.

(:

a shout of praise.
10:25 PM

Wednesday, September 14, 2005:

TO THE KING (of the toilet bowl..) ! (:

i love you i love you i love you. <3

(@9:55pm:

eh. something's wrong with this post. i rmb i added alot of stuffs to it.. WHAT HAPPENED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! someone deleted all those stuff issit.. the evil gremelin or smthg? aiyah. anyway. i wrote that i loved the pics more than the king la. hahhahaha. who wants to be a prisoner la. i'll be the TAITAI. i aspire to be one. anyone rich and handsome and wants to marry ME? hahhaa.. (:(:(: hurrray...

oh yes. i also wrote that our scores for prelims are really horrible, ms tan said only 2 people in our class passed english.. ): and they're going to moderate our scores by ALOT. and ms kon isnt very happy at all. i REALLY REALLY hope ms tan is exxagerrating. i dont want to fail prelims,. ): ):

i think thats about all i can say la. i have no more mood for anything.. cept maybe that .. I'M GOING TO FAIL MY PIANO EXAM. ( and i'm pretty sure of it now, cos i just listened to the cd and i really really suck. ): )

i want to just bury in a hole and melt now. haixxxx

a shout of praise.
12:21 PM

Friday, September 9, 2005:

the pie that we made at abi's house

some random day when we decided to study at kap

me and kim at church last sunday

me and zhen

me, zhen, mey. finally out after so longgg (:

minty and me at the ice skating rink

mey and abi (sitting opp me and minty)

me and drew at some random bus stop

rachel, me and shiping at the lovemg gathering

me and joel on the bus

the whole holiday has been loads of fun for me and its time for me to settle back down.. yupp. back to the study mode on monday.. really down to studying. havent done it properly this week at all.. sigh. feel kinda guilty. and the next two days are sorta play days again.. oh well. I WILL STUDY.. promises kristi.

seems like things are looking slightly better.. (: hopefully. heard the barker guys are getting their results back on monday.. GOOD LUCK! hahha. i guess the most important thing to remember is that whatever results you get, remember to thank god that you didnt get anything worse.. yeah. if you didnt study, then you cant blame him, blame yourself. cheer up! even if the first 3 mths are gonna be play months, just rmb that you've gotta work hard for the big thing.. you still hv one more chance. so dont give up! study hard.. (:

and so again, i remind myself, that i should be studying too. altho i'm not staying in s'pore, i still need the beautiful cert! go krissy! you can do it.

okay. this is going to be kept short for you cla! so you can just enjoy the pictures. (: (: (:

a shout of praise.
8:11 PM

Wednesday, September 7, 2005:

i hate having to make choices.. especially if the choice is over two of my really close friends. i didnt mean for things to happen out this way, why cant everybody just be friends, stop misunderstanding each other, and be really honest with each other? why cant everyone be like before.. and be happy? i really dont want either of you to be sad.. sigh. this is crazy. i dunno. maybe all three of us should just go on holiday, and come back, and say that everything is alright.

sometimes life seems such a blur. you dont know whats going on in your life, but it goes on past you, pushing you along, and it just leaves you in a complete daze. sigh. i dunno. nothing seems to be going the way you planned it or the way you wish it would go.. everyone seems so distant, so cold, unreliable. and i feel used, lost, sad, confused. a whole lot of feelings.

friends. doesnt seem like such a good idea to me anymore.. i'm just thankful for the few real ones that i have. even those that i have in school, some are just so.. two faced sometimes, you dont really seem to know if they are really the real person you are talking to. actually, i dont know why i'm writing all these. i should be happy. i should be glad, and thankful for everything that i have now. but, i guess, all these emotions are really. really. overwhelming.

was reminded about david and jonathan today, the close friendship that they had. how saul was jealous of david, of his wealth, his power, his title, his position, his glory, and most importantly his son. and no matter how saul tried to convince jonathan that david was going to steal all of jonathan's future, jonathan still chose friendship, over status. and how he tried to save david from being killed, and all that. its like. WOW you know. i wonder if i'll ever be that sacrificing for my friends.. sigh.. i'm not trying to imply anything, so YOU dont worry. its just that friend ship seemed so important, and i guess that's really true. i really dont know what i'd do without every body who stood by me every second of my way. thanks all of you..

i guess the most important thing is that god has a plan for everyone. so no matter how much you go through, its just to keep us safe in the end.. and thats the best thing can ever happen isnt it? anyway. i shall just end with a verse again.. "trust the lord with all you heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight." proverbs 3:5-6

a shout of praise.
8:15 AM

Tuesday, September 6, 2005:

i really dont know what i'd do without you. you've been my best friend for ages. but if you really choose to be distant then, i guess thats the way it has to be. i'm not in one of my moods again, dont worry about it. but. i'd really wish that you wouldnt, cos it would mean the world if dont leave me, if you really think its gonna make things better.. all i know is, its not gonna make me any happier. i know its hard for you to make a choice, and i'm leaving you in a tight spot, so whatever you decide, just know that i'll support it, and i'll respect your decision, k? thanks for being one of my closest friends ever, this friendship just means alot to me. "A friend is always loyal, and a brother is born to help in time of need" proverbs 17:17 i will always try to be that friend and that sister to you.. always.

the paparazzi isnt making my life any better, i am truly sorry for causing her to be in this whole situation, but she hasnt exactly based her friendship with others on solid foundation right. ahh. i feel like slamming her, and i have alot to say against whats she's blaming me for, although i must admit that i'm sorry for telling things to someone, but i really really didnt know that i wasn't supposed to say it. i guess its not what god will want me to do.. "get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. be kind and compassionate to another, forgiving each other just as in Christ God forgave you" ephesians 4:31 so, you know who you are, once is enough. dont do it too much cos god wont like it. k? "dont grumble against each other, brothers or you will be judged" james 5:9

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why
~~I can't keep my eyes off of you~~
you and me - lifehouse

a shout of praise.
12:29 AM

Sunday, September 4, 2005:

ha. doesnt seem like exams are over.. just feels like a long break before it all starts again.. prelims went by really really quickly. but i think it went okay.. i wish i can take it again now that i feel wiser (ha. its just that i know what to study for prelims) and not make all the stupid careless mistakes that i did.. and with better time management i would probably have finished certain papers... GRRR. stupid prelims. but thats okay. i think god has blessed me much.. so. i shall be thankful for god's grace and mercy. yupp..

the weekend passed by so quickly, its sunday already, and i think the one week break will pass by just as fast too. i'm giving myself one week's worth of a good rest, doing relaxing stuffs like math and reading my story books, then its back to the memorising stuff. not looking forward to two months worth of that. (rather, 3 if you count nov in) bleah. not pleasing at all..

certain happier things have happened though. and i'm thankful for it. got a close friend back, and best friends became even better, and i understand them more.. thanks to god, i think my life is getting back on track.. (: ahhh. life is sahh-weet-er. hehehe. as claire would put it. haha.

friday we (mey abi jia xwx me) all had a crazy time in the karaoke lounge, at kbox.. its really cool to destress there, like jump around on the sofas in that tiny confined space there, and screaming at the top of your lungs, and the best thing is nobody can hear you, and its really cheap. (: hahha. but our next door neighbours just kept laughing at us.. thank goodness we dont know them.. or it'll be highly embarrassing. hehehe... (: fun all the same..

today.. went out with zhen and mey.. hahha. crazy la we all.. hahhaa. go around taking so many pictures of ourselves.. and try on so many clothes.. wahhh. and got alot of new stuffs too! (: and i want moreeee... lol. better start saving.. haha. it was all fun fun fun.. (: getting out, just the 3 of us again.. but it was quite sad we couldnt eat dinner together.. but oh well. i'm quite tired. had a long night last night.. long story la. (: but a happy one. haha.

you! you know who you are, dont worry too much about the whole friendship thing too much k! everything will be alright.. (:

anyway, i shall end with a verse.. "every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows" james 1:17

so. god is good, all the time! (:

a shout of praise.
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